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Jul. 2nd, 2007 10:53 amBefore I get into this post I'd like to preface it with a couple of others... I think there's a very interesting narrative developing on my friends page.
Axamendes on Seal
"Well that's kind of how it works: insanity precedes clarity. The process of going under is a sort of controlled mental break down. The tower of self must be destroyed before it can be replaced with something better."
JR French on "occulture"
The key quote here:
"Out of the context of regular and directed practice, the metaphysical speculation and ontological frameworks upon which occult practice relies are utter gibberish. This is so in exactly the same way that a musical score means little or nothing to non-musicians. One could teach themselves to read the notes, but they wouldn't have the notes and the motions needed to produce them ground into their nervous system. They wouldn't feel it."
Pharminatrix on Alchemy
"For although alchemy is a transformation, not all transformations are alchemy. It's not simply a matter of saying "oh, you know, I meditated and did some Pathwork and stuff changed. Don't thank me, thank alchemy!"
Part of what I want to do with my transformation is to expand it into an act of will and use it to change the world. I want to be a living artwork of myself, expanding the minds of everyone I encounter. This requires physical alchemy. By changing myself all the way to the surface and down to the molecular, I will change the world around me as it encounters a different coefficient of adversity.
That's why I don't want to frame it within the metaphor of "gender dysphoria" or the typical trans-gender narratives. I don't need to justify this as something I have to do. I want to make it something glorious that I love doing. And so far, it has been. Now I plan to use that as my lever to keep moving forward, and make this transformation the heart of a total rewiring of my life, to make it bigger and better in all ways.
You can translate this to your own life as necessary.
But this explains why it is important to me to get face to face time with people in my new form. I know it's inconvenient sometimes, but everything worth doing has a price, a disutility of action. Perhaps all my study in economics can help me add a useful piece to this narrative above, that of opportunity cost and comparative advantage, of revealed preference and subjective marginal utility.
Axamendes on Seal
"Well that's kind of how it works: insanity precedes clarity. The process of going under is a sort of controlled mental break down. The tower of self must be destroyed before it can be replaced with something better."
JR French on "occulture"
The key quote here:
"Out of the context of regular and directed practice, the metaphysical speculation and ontological frameworks upon which occult practice relies are utter gibberish. This is so in exactly the same way that a musical score means little or nothing to non-musicians. One could teach themselves to read the notes, but they wouldn't have the notes and the motions needed to produce them ground into their nervous system. They wouldn't feel it."
Pharminatrix on Alchemy
"For although alchemy is a transformation, not all transformations are alchemy. It's not simply a matter of saying "oh, you know, I meditated and did some Pathwork and stuff changed. Don't thank me, thank alchemy!"
Part of what I want to do with my transformation is to expand it into an act of will and use it to change the world. I want to be a living artwork of myself, expanding the minds of everyone I encounter. This requires physical alchemy. By changing myself all the way to the surface and down to the molecular, I will change the world around me as it encounters a different coefficient of adversity.
That's why I don't want to frame it within the metaphor of "gender dysphoria" or the typical trans-gender narratives. I don't need to justify this as something I have to do. I want to make it something glorious that I love doing. And so far, it has been. Now I plan to use that as my lever to keep moving forward, and make this transformation the heart of a total rewiring of my life, to make it bigger and better in all ways.
You can translate this to your own life as necessary.
But this explains why it is important to me to get face to face time with people in my new form. I know it's inconvenient sometimes, but everything worth doing has a price, a disutility of action. Perhaps all my study in economics can help me add a useful piece to this narrative above, that of opportunity cost and comparative advantage, of revealed preference and subjective marginal utility.
